After seeing the results of my bother Tim, his wife Ginny, my niece Rebecca, and then a lady at the community center who had hired personal trainers, I was inspired and motivated to do the same and hopefully have a great experience like they did. I had started resistance training with a official trainer several weeks before. She had noticed my lack of "range of motion" on my right and explained that she would get it back and gave me a series of exercises to do, but it went from lack of range to me wincing....but "just keep it up", she shared. She showed me how to do pilates while I was gone to Idaho, which I did, but I noticed my range was getting smaller and now my shoulder was tender to touch.After a marathon visit to sister Robin's house, loading her stuff and then the two of us going on to Rexburg, gathering massive amounts of genealogy, getting her back home, then pushing hard to get back home by Halloween night. By Monday night, I could not lift my arm, even an inch, without wanting to share a high pitched scream. I could not sleep, or let it hang at my side without pain. I tossed and turned so much that Walt had to move into the other bedroom at night. When it became obvious it was not going to heal on its own, I went to a doctor. After moving it forward, scream, scream, then back, scream, scream. He said, " You have bone spurs, calcium deposits, in your should and tendon. Nothing you can do now except have a long and painful recovery. Scar tissue has to form over the ends then you will begin to get relief." What?I thought. First of all you haven't even looked at an xray and I know that some magic physical therapy will fix this. He gave me steroids and a percocet a powerful pain pill. I am not a pill taker, but I was very happy to get them, and had them down as soon as I could. They barely took the edge off. I did not sleep for most of five straight days.After the x-ray results from the radiologist came back, here is what the doctor told me. "You have bone spurs and a dense calcium deposit in your shoulder and tendon." He had it absolutely diagnosed before the xray. I am such a skeptic when it comes to medical. The extra exertion on the muscle had inflamed it causing it to irritate the tissue near the calcium deposits. I think spur is a good word for them. Just dawned on me spur is a four letter word too, like dragging skin backward on barbwire fence. The perfect visual for what I have been feeling. So here I am, a list of stuff I can't think of doing, Can't drive, can't read, (too fuzzy), can't sleep well, can't get dressed, Walt has to do it all, can't cook, can't, write, just barely can do key board with one hand, can't can't can't. This healing will most likely last during the holidays. Poor me, poor little Penny. Then yesterday during my drug induced feel sorry for myself hours, I had a revelation. WHAT A SELF ABSORBED IDIOT I AM! MY SISTER ROBIN HAS TO ENDURE THIS EVERY MOMENT OF HER LIFE. She might not have the pain, but she cannot use her right arm at all. Now add to that a disability walking. I thought I had empathy before but now I have had a healthy dose of reality check. She is absolutely one of the most amazing women I have ever known. She has carried her affliction with grace and dignity. She is and always will be an inspirational example to all who know her. As for me, what I am going through is nothing and I know that there is an end in sight. I need to remember that just because I am in pain I don't have to be one.